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Dec. 12th, 2007


Rats and Rationality (x-post)

Hey people, this is very general, and some of my thoughts and feelings about the church are outlined in it, but it's more of a general treatise than specifically just about my relationship with mormonism.

Below is the link to my personal journal that has the entry I'm talking about.


Sep. 22nd, 2007

Fifth Lord


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Does anyone happen to have any experience/connections with PFLAG? My mom agreed to go to a meeting, only I can't find anything about the Salt Lake chapter... the email address and website listed on the PFLAG site are both dead ends. Did the chapter get disbanded or something?

Sep. 16th, 2007




My BF and I were cracking up over this yesterday morning when we were snuggling in bed over our morning blog-ons.

The great thing about it, too, was that my dad (still a member of the church) was downstairs sleeping in our guest room.

Aug. 31st, 2007



Hey folks, I just found this community today. I've been a member of the ex-mormons community for about five or six years. My being gay was of course a major issue in leaving the church, but I had philosophical problems with the church that were far-reaching beyond that. Being gay just made the technical processes easier.

But anyway, I wanted to post something over here that I posted on the ex-mormons community a few days ago.

"I am moving to Seattle in two and a half weeks. My dad is coming up from Mesa, Arizona, to help me move.

I left the church about eight years ago (officially, it was a long time coming and was more or less in effect in my own mind for a good year or so before hand). My dad was the bishop in our ward at the time. He didn't know what to do about it at the time. My announcement that I was leaving the church was delivered alongside the revelation that the "therapy" I had underwent four years earlier with an LDS social services counselor had been "ineffective" and that while I no longer considered myself a young man dealing with a problem of same-sex attraction, I was however gay.

I was 22 years old. The lead-up to that day, and even a long time after it, knew a lot of really hard times for me. A lot of fear, a lot of anger, a lot of confusion and misunderstanding.

My dad is not a bad person. He is really stubborn, he is very conservative, and he's a typical mormon dad, the kind that they make bishop two or three times during his life.

But he's helping me move. Helping me move in with my boyfriend. Helping me move in with my boyfriend who was raised...brace for the shock...IN THE RLDS CHURCH! I really don't know what my dad is going to find harder to deal with, the fact that I'm a sodomite, or that I'm going to be sleeping with somebody whose parents are practicing RLDS!

Anyway, for all the really awful feelings and experiences I've had, it's always nice to have something positive to look at. My dad doesn't have to do this, I don't really need his help. I mean, he's 63 years old and a good 100 pounds over weight, and I don't have so much furniture that I couldn't do it all with just my friends and stuff. And I'm 30. I've lived on my own for eight years. I didn't ask him to come, he offered it. He doesn't understand me, but he's trying. It's something. I never really thought I'd see this day."

Aug. 3rd, 2007


Starting my new life

Hey! I just heard about this group from the University of Utah's LGBT website and realized this is exactly what I have been looking for. Although I don't know if anyone still is actively involved here, I still thought it would be worth it to join and look for people like me.I just joined and so let me tell everyone a bit about me.

I was raised by mormon parents as a mormon until I was 9, when my parents got a divorce. I kept going to church for about another year with my mom until she stopped going and went inactive. My dad became inactive very soon after the divorce. When I was 13 my friends (who were all active mormons) did the whole "come back to us" kind of routine and I received the Priesthood on Super Bowl Sunday 2003. I have remained active in the church to this very day. The catch is that I am gay. The only reason I am still active is because my entire extended family is super religious and I have about 20 younger cousins who all look up to me because I am the oldest of all my cousins and am very active and the "perfect" role-model of someone who can stay active when their immediate family is not. Plus my parents are both very mormon friendly still and will come to church when I speak in sacrament meeting. This has put so much pressure on me to reject my gay sexuality and live a worthy life in the Church of Jesus Christ.

I recently have started my process of coming out though. A few weeks ago I actually told my parents that I had decided not to go on a mission. Wow! They at first were totally shocked, and now they avoid the subject whenever it is brought up. I guess they are responding about how I expected, but I still haven't seen any of my extended family and I know they know by now because my grandma was there when I told my mom and she cannot keep anything secret. The only one who has come out and said they are okay with my decision is my sister, who became inactive the same time my mom did.

Every time I have been to a church meeting since I've told my family about not going on a mission, I feel like everyone knows and is already starting to reject me, and I haven't revealed my biggest secret yet! So here I am. The only hope for me is going off to college at the University of Utah. I am soooooo glad I decided to live on campus. I have never been with another guy before and it is definitely at the top of my list of things to do once I can get away from my family.

I am so excited and can hardly wait, yet at the same time I am incredibly nervous about what is going to happen to me over the next few years as I start college and attempt to accept who I really am and not worry about being a "failure."

Feb. 5th, 2007



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Oct. 23rd, 2006




Just joined and thought i would introduce myself. My name is Amy.. or Cheeky_1 (on LJ). I am LDS... just NOT active. I am married to a great guy.. who had also helped ot open my eyes to a few things. He is bi and has been for a VERY long time, and has helped me to keep my eyes open as well.

Also my dear cousin, whom im very close to, came out to the rest of hte family about his sexuality. I have known for years but he lived in a shell for quite sometime. His openess has been great for both my husband and I in finding ourselves.

Anyways looking for others to friend that has been down the similar path. We haven't exactly came out to our parents yet, my inlaws do know of a few things from hubbys past, but not really to what full extent yet.

Sep. 4th, 2006



mormon drag queen?

Anyone know if Betty Butterfield was raised mormon? Her video about being baptized seems to have a lot of mormon inside jokes. I didn't spend a lot of time looking through her site, but I noticed that her welcome message plays "High on a Mountain Top" in the background. And the background music for her video about Jehovah Witnesses is "I am a Child of God."

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Aug. 23rd, 2006



solidarity with polygamists?

Hey glbt ex-mos!

If you didn't hear about it, the children of polygamists held a rally in Salt Lake City last weekend, defending their families' illegal life-style and trying to dispel misconceptions about polygamy.

Does anyone else feel that their plight is similar to ours? Consider the following. The caricature and/or abusive polygamists get most mainstream media attention. Most people with opinions about polygamy have never met a polygamists. Most people learn about polygamy from non-polygamists. Finally the basis of anti-polygamists' stand against polygamy is a moral/religious condemnation, which they then justify through questionable claims. Such as polygamy leads to child abuse, forced marriage, tax evasion, embezzlement, etc.

Now, consider that the media also often focuses on the caricature homo. Many anti-gays haven't met gays, and they learn about gays from other straights. And they often justify their anti stance by claiming homosexuality leads to child abuse, infidelity, STDs, drug addiction, pedophilia, etc.

My liberal ears perk up anytime that I hear people say that something is just "wrong", because I've been on the receiving end of that "wrong" for too long. The irony is that this "wrong" is something that the mormon created, themselves. Thoughts?

Aug. 8th, 2006



Gay mormons in the Trib

My LGBT* ex-mormons, if you didn't read it, take a look at yesterday's Salt Lake Tribune article about homosexual mormons who marry, even after divulging their orientation to their prospective spouses. My main reaction to the article is the disservice that the article title "Gay, Mormon, married" does to self-labeled gay mormons. I have a hunch that none of these married men consider themselves "gay", but rather working through "same-sex attraction".

I'd prefer if the media didn't group me together with men who view their attractions in such a superficial manner. But I'll bet that the average tribune reader doesn't think anything more about "gay" than that "gays" desire sex with other men or other women. And I do fall into that category, although there's so much more to my gayness than what gets put where. ;-)

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